Hi! Amar boyosh 24, ami ekjon meye, ami shotti e khub hotashay vugchi jar karoney amar ekdom e ar bachtey icche korena. Ei page a ajke ami amar jiboner kahini share korbo, kora ta khub dorkar karon karo shathei ami ekhono bepar ta share kortey parini. Jai hok ami prothomey straight e chilam, jodio choto belay ami amar feelings tuku bujhtam nah, nijeke straight bollam ei karonei karon ami choto belay meye der ke pochondo korleo feelings ta bujhtam nah.
Class 10 e amar 1ta cheler shathey relationship hoyechilo, 2 years amader relationship thakar por breakup hoye jaay. Tokhon ami khub venge pori. Jai hok ami friend der shohayotay finally recover kori, erpor nah ami karo proposal peleo sheta patta ditam nah because relationship er proti amar ekdom e mon uthey giyechilo. Ami friends er shathey khub valoi time spend kortam. Keu amake valobashar kotha bollei amar birokto lagto. Actually tokhon kono cheler proti e amar feelings kaj kortona.
Ami tokhono LGBTQ support kortam nah. Ekdin hothat ekta cheler shathey amar torko hocchilo LGBTQ support Kora niye. Tokhon e shey amar chokh khuley dey, shey bolechilo je tara 8, 10 ta manusher motoi normal. Ami tokhon e deeply vebe dekhlam j asholei toh kotha ta thik, kintu er moddhei amar onek meye ke valo lagto but ami shei feelings ta bujhtam nah.
By the way ami kintu 2 ta kotha bolini. 1st one – ami jokhon class 8 e chilam tokhon ami ekta ma’am er opor chorom crush kheyechilam. Ami ma’am ke everyday flowers gift kortam, but tokhon o jantam nah amar mone ki choltese. 2nd one – ami jokhon girls’ college e portam tokhon o ami arekta apu’r opor crush khai, r tokhon oi apu ta ke o ami gift diyechilam. Jodio tokhon ami in a relationship chilam, but tokhon o ami feel kortey parini amar vetor ta niye.
Accha jai hok ami goto 3years dhorey lukiye lukiye lesbian romantic video dekha shuru kori. Amar khub bhalo lagto shegulo dekhtey. Ami tokhon o bhabtam amar gf hobe, but voy o petam j ei country teh eshob possible nah. Tai dream dekhtam ami foreign country teh jabo.
Kintu ei year er April ei amar dream ta finally vengey jaay. Ami nijer iccher biruddhey ma baba relative er icche teh biye kori. Amar Iccher kotha kokhono kawke bolini voye because porey emon kichu hobe ja ami tolerate kortey parbona. Ekhon ami khub e frustrated r khub e depressed feel kori. Bachtey icche korena. Old days gulo miss kori khub. Tokhon single theke friend der shathey ghura ghuri korey onek moja kortam ar ekta hope thakto je amar o GF hobe kintu ekhon sheta r possible naah. Amar icchey kortese paliye jete kintu shetaow possible naah. Amar husband er shatheo ami share kortey parchina because he loves me lot. Oke ami pochondo korleow taake love er act kortey hoy amake because amar kicchu korar nei. Amar kono friend er shatheo ami egulo share korini because they won’t allow it.
Ami kintu ekhono raat r dupurey lukiye YouTube e lesbian relationship er video dekhi, series er clips dekhi because amar khub valo lagey. But khub koshto hocche amar evabey din paar kortey. Ekhon khali suicidal thoughts kaaj korey amar FB ar Instagram e maximum celebrity ra e LGBTQ supporter. Ami oderke following diye rakhsi. Oderke dekhi r boshey boshey araley kadtey thaki. Nijer opor khub raag hoy kno ami biye ta korlam. Life ta totally noshto hoye geche amar. Hoytoh dekha jabey kondin suicide korey feli. Ekhon ami amake ki boley dabi korbo ekjon bisexual person or depressed lesbian? Jodio amar kono meyer shathei kokhon relation hoyni, ami kibhabey baki life lead korbo!!!
Source: BAH ( Bangladesh Against Homophobia )